My mother was diagnosed with liver cirrhosis in 2011. After consulting various doctors, Dr Philip Augustine , Lakeshore Hospital confirmed that it is liver cirrhosis. Hearing this word for first time in my life and unable to digest the fact that my amma is slipping away, i googled up to know what it is.
Her first round of therapy made her very weak , she started loosing hair and was confined to bed.
One of our relative suggested a homeo doctor Dr.Raju. Consulting him , he assured that he can take in the patient. His medicines started improving her health though liver cirrhosis couldnt be cured , his medicines helped in maintain the current status of the liver , not worsening nor getting better.
My engagement was fixed in a hurry burry , I got engaged to a person with just knowing his name and nothing else😁
My mother's disease made my father take such hasty decisions. But as the days went by amma was picking up her health , maintaining the diet , became active and was living a normal life.
I got married and went to stay with my in laws. Dr Raju medicines kept my mother alive and Lead a normal life.
In Nov 2016 amma decided enough was enough and stopped her medicines, she felt eating medicines for such a long time has cured her.
Acchan found out she was not taking her medicines after a month's time. Immediately she was taken to Amritha Hospital where they told she was having gall bladder cancer too, though they didnt say anything harsh about liver cirrhosis.
My mother life and health started going from bad to worse from January 2017.
Ammavan took her reports and met doctor at Vandanam GH. Doctors told that a minor operation is only required , she will be alright.
Doctors at Amritha had different opinion, they told radiation is best.Acchan trusted them. Two rounds of radiation and my mom lost her health , she reached a critical stage. Her platelets went low, Dr Anoop claimed it to be a virus and only 65 percent changes she will survives. 3.5 lakhs was spend to inject that 1 dose of medicines. She survived .By this time they had entirely stopped her liver cirrhosis medicines. Both the diseases were out of control. Ascites started and every week they had to drain her. She was literally staying in hospital , with two or three days at home. My mother started losing memory , personality changed from a soft spoken lady to angry bird . By now Dr Anoop Koshy said she may live upto 6 months.
By June 2017 when I reached Kerala , I forced my father to go a head with ayurveda. Though I knew hopes were so little. In Wayanad a tribal doctor gave medicines, we saw a ray of hope and her tummy was drained after 23 days ( before ot was a weekly procedure). From a bedridden stage , she started sitting on chair though with our help , taking food by herself etc.
My brother insisted on homeo medicines,Though I was against any other medines other than ayurveda , acchan had to give homeo medicines 43 times a day , ayurveda too. I kept on asking if her condition was improving but nothing seems to work.
I hoped she will survive but tables turned she passed away on 28th july.
Few things remain - did we take wrong decisions at times, she would have been alive if we went ahead with surgery, was the radiation a big mistake, injection of too much medicine by doctors a major cause of her death, was she too weak to take homeo and ayurveda together.
May be in a hope to make our loved one survive at any cost , make us poor decision makers. I hope god give a proper guidance at such stages because we go blind and numb at such crucial situations.
A look at the way a company progressed in a short span of time may make many eyes pop out, But wait more than an achievement there is something else into it.
Moving down the memory line , many joined this company watching what the management tried to show them....a mighty nationalized firm . Every individual employee tried to dream in that way. Those hopes even when you get a meagre salary...when u don't get ur overtime....u toil hard without anything in return..... u dont get your salary on time......u spend ur energy and time without meeting ur loved ones ...... but waiting with all hopes when our small unlisted company will grow and we can get a big projects, better life, better income , excellent facilities etc. Those tears, toils, sweat , hard work etc shouldn't go unnoticed. Every person who are there now and who dropped out in this long run to make this project a success is to be remembered when company achieved this milestone.
These hopes ....dreams....vision of all staff put together makes one successful company / project. As aptly said by someone
No Matter Where You Go or Who You Become ..
Never Forget Who Helped You Get There
A hearty congratulations to one and all who are behind this success.
Went through what Tom Hacks interview -he was sharing his secret of the 27yr old married life ▪In Hollywood that is something we don't get to see.
Yes he said it ' the ultimate feel to come back to person who loves you' I realised that is the relationship which I look forward, the feeling of belonging.
Yesterday I had to catch up a few works after office hours, I was literally praying that mani sleeps till I reach home. I feel nearly insecure that I would be taunted for coming late.
My colleague Sheba's hubby had come all the way from Farwaniya with their 10 month old baby , just to collect her and here my hubby is screaming down the phone for being late. A lurch on my heart , I didn't ask you god for a wealthy life just a simple sweet and a happy family.
Coming back on my way I kept on saying Bharathi , I don't feel like going home. I am dead tired but mani will start screaming for being late. I know my daughter will be waiting for me. This is where I know our relationship is not smooth , I am not able to converse with him as a normal wife does.
The belonging I get to be with my daughter is absent when it's my hubby. Where is the things getting astray. Hope we can bring these broken pieces together. An understanding spouse is the lamp of our career and life , but when will he realise it.....hoping that wonderful day is not very far.
This time last year , when I was lying alone in the hospital bed withering in pain there was no soul nearby to comfort me ....but I had hope in my eyes ...after all this I will get a beautiful baby...
Today a year later again am in a heart lurching pain....no sound but silent tears ....but here am crying with no hopes....u r very far away from me.....enjoying every minute never realising. ..that a mother s waiting for u at the other end of world...who went thru a hell lot of pain to bring u into this world. ....
Happy birthday ammutty
