Irreparable Loss when death snatches away some of our favourites

Anirudhan maman sitting on the fence stone under the lamp post was my memories of that strict but a man full of love.My childhood vacations was mostly spend in their house . A very warm smile and eyes showing full of happiness was a very welcoming sight, when we climb down the hill towards their home.

A man of few words but limitless love was the man I remember. He had his shades of grey character but that didn't deter us children from reaching out to him. He rarely express his mind but we could read it.He was a man who born in rich aristocratic family but ended up with nothing because of his vagabond ways. Appachi used to get pissed off with the sight of him since he never fulfilled his duties as a husband .His children loved him but was angry with him for not making them accomplishing their dream.He was a father who rarely praises , who just helps them only at the nick of time , they had their endless woes but I liked him . Though there was times when we had to stay on the ration food at his house but I preferred it than the luxuries elsewhere. He just watches from far when we play or work but his eyes watching our every movement and when in trouble he was there. My mother liked him , she usually doesn't like drunkards ,saying there is a very sweet personality below that rough  grim exterior. He  smiles  and says a few words to help her forget her sorrows but that was what my mother wanted at times than her other co-brothers who kept a plastic smile.

My father rung up to tell he passed away. Though he told it casually as I had already knew he was having blood cancer, I never expected he will leave us so fast. I kept my voice under control but my eyes was brimming feeling that irreparable loss or as my brother said 'the one and only good person in my father's family has left'.

Leaving from office , hubby went out with his friend and I lay down on the bed thinking of all the sweet things that happened in my life associated with him, my pillow was wet when I got back my controls. Hubby entered the room staring at me , saying some sweet things to change my mood but he was some one I can't replace, Hus never had known I had loved this man that much.